Day 2: The misery begins

Well for one thing I was actually surprised that people read this and that so many people supported me. It really helps and Thanks!

Yesterday I ate a salad with tuna packed in water. Yummy... I know.... :( Still coming up with ideas on what else I can make quickly for myself. This morning for breakfast I had 2 hard boiled eggs and 2 pieces of toast. I ate a chicken breast sandwich on a honey whole wheat sandwich thin with leafy lettuce. For snacks I had carrot sticks and some peanuts. For dinner my family wanted the taco shells I make but I only had 2 of them. We make taco meat as normal and then put in in jumbo pasta shells. We place those on a layer of salsa in a baking dish and then sprinkle cheese over it. Then we serve it in a bed of lettuce and topped with tomatoes. I use hamburger meat that is 80/20 to try to be healthier and I would love to be able to find whole grain jumbo noodle shells.

I did get a little disappointed today. I went to the gym and was going to start my membership. However, they failed to mention to me that I would need a bank account to have the money drafted out. I brought cash. I was so upset. I came ready to go and pumped about working out and taking my abs class. Talk about a let down. That kind of bummed me out until I picked up the kids. The night has been non stop since then.

We went to Brooks program at school and then as soon as we got home I cooked dinner, ate dinner while standing and feeding Liam, cleaned up after dinner, swept, vacuumed, took out the trash, fed my little man a night time bottle and then I put him in his crib as I popped in a pilates DVD. Surprisingly he let me work out as he played in his crib and watched.

I was a little discouraged at first. But I did surprise myself. I didn't do too bad at all. I have taken so long to get back to pilates because of my C-section. My sister had her pop open after she had one... well yea that was like a couple days later and some kid ran into her stomach but still.... that memory sticks with you! I have just been soooo afraid that it would hurt so bad. But it didn't. It was hard though and half way through the 30 minute workout my muscles were quivering. But I made it through! I think that is something to be proud of. My arms are also sooo sore. The fat burn workout I did yesterday on Your Shape to target my arms and chest really did a number.

Today at Brooks school I noticed a lot of mothers with newborn babies.... they made me sick for the most part. I wanted to curl up and hide in my hoodie. Sucking it in wasn't going to make anything and easier :P. No but seriously, it sucked. They were all so little. I just was not blessed with such good genes. I just know that I have to work hard for that and maybe I will... NO I will reach my goal and appreciate it. I am not saying that all those women don't work for it, just I have known many girls that have babies and look tiny a couple of days later. I think my major problem was just dealing with having a new baby. Being the only one to get up with the baby and going to school took a number. When I wasn't busy I wanted to sleep. Not having much activity caused me to gain baby weight back... and by that I do mean baby... I gained back everything I lost. But it wont be here for long.

Night everyone!